𝘑𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘺, 𝘥𝘪𝘨𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯, 𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵, 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘸, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘰𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘴, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰𝘰. 𝘗𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘦𝘦, 𝘪𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘮𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦. - Mrs. Meza
Husky Strong 💙 Just finished my week at summer enrichment and here are my thoughts: •I loved being around students. •I missed Milo terribly. •Teaching with 6 ft distance, masks, open doors/outside is an adventure. •I showered and changed when I got home before touching my baby. •I enjoyed seeing co-workers. •The middle schoolers are able to keep their masks on, but it isn’t easy for anyone. When it is safe and San Diego is off the watch list, I will feel happy to be back in the classroom with my students. Until then, I will do my best and create an engaging and rigorous distance learning curriculum because safety rules!
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🌻Grace & Gratitude🌻
✏️ Year 2 Week 2 📚 So far this year I have been very grateful for my new students, awesome coworkers, and HMS as a whole. However, “grace” is something I am learning to give myself more this year. Pregnancy & teaching is a difficult feat and harder than I anticipated. I have to spend every evening giving myself grace for my daily imperfections. Sitting on the job, being late to a meeting, forgetting things, attending appointments a week early - none of these are the Karen I know & love; but I need to accept the physical/mental/emotional reality my body is facing (good advise Beth). Giving myself grace encourages me to focus on each and every smile I receive from a student & the joy we share, take life day by day, and acknowledge this is my new best self and everything will be ok. #38weekspregnant One of the other 7th grade history teachers at HMS started year 25, as I officially started year 1. I am blessed beyond belief. You can probably imagine the anxiety I felt in the weeks leading up to the first day of school. I have been in the classroom for 5 full days and I ended each day with a sense of gratitude and pride; as I have been able to tell myself - see Karen, I knew you could do this - you worried for nothing. Well the truth is, I worried because I care, and I still worry. Worrying gives me the opportunity to be flexible because I can change any part of the lesson that I think would be taught better in another way. Thankfully, however, I no longer worry about my skills as a teacher. I am not perfect, but the final 6 months of school last year at Hillsdale, definitely prepared me for the first day of school and gave me the foundation to release my jitters. I am the teacher in the classroom where I was taught 7th grade - and that feeling is incredible. These new students are the future and the makers of history. I am excited and eager to support their learning and facilitate their growth academically, socially, and emotionally. Day 5 down, and my life's career to come.
"But she was helping me and I want her to help me finish." When trying to move to a new activity, I was surprised and impressed by a student's comment. Why? Because this class is an inclusion class. Students of varying physical and mental strengths and weaknesses are brought together to learn history. "Can you find Europe on the map? Now what about Spain?" Does this sound familiar for a teacher encouraging student discovery...well, it's not. These quotes are from a student who doesn't want to "DO" another student's work, but instead wants to use their talent of teaching others, to direct students on their own learning journey. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses. Within an inclusive classroom, students are growing in social and self development as they learn their own biases and how their actions affect others - AND how to use their strengths to support others. In my class, success is independent; but, students are mindful that success is also using their strengths to their full potential - which might just be helping others be successful in their own ways. I am not teaching students how to be helpers; I am teaching them how to ask one another if they need help in an empowering way. Everyone is able - our task, together, is to find out how.
I had been previously introduced to RP during my time as a resident assistant here at USD. As an RA, we had RP workshops in which restoring peace after harm was a focal point. However, what I learned from class and the book is the value of pro-active circles. If the circles are only used in times of trouble or despair then the connection the circle brings to the classroom is not present for true humanity to shine. With proactive circles, the pressure is off. Yet, the teacher must establish a specific purpose and goal of the circle. The casual, regular use of circles within the classroom will provide students with the supporting relationships needed for when the circle turns responsive. Within the classroom, students would engage in a circle one day during the week for the first 15 minutes of class with questions pertaining to their personal lives which can be generated through a “thought bucket” submission. Circles will also be used to debrief activities or mentally prepare for a project or test – however it is important to note that these circles will be focused on a student's emotions and thoughts and not content. I believe my classroom circles are about humans not students and therefore I stray away from using circles to discuss content unless it is a Socratic seminar or fishbowl discussion. Additionally, reactive circles will always be welcome in my classroom regardless of what is present on the agenda. Circles give students a voice and allow them to understand they are not alone – whether verbally by another student that says, “me too” or physically in the circle of connection.
I have seen the power of circles in my courses when my cohorts felt comfortable to talk about real issues going on in their life after the second circle. Two examples from the book that stood out to me was post-activities circles: the example was given of a circle to deconstruct emotions after activities and lessons on the African Slave Trade and goodbye circles – when a student or teacher leaves the class before the end of the year. While the goodbye example was early on in the reading, I have it marked to use on my last day at Bonita. My plan is to have a circle in which students share their favorite memory from our class and while doing so a ball of yarn will be thrown around to show them even without me there, they are still connected to each other and I am hopeful they will continue to build relationships with each other after I leave. When sitting down to grade papers, I sometimes feel I need to play happy music and splash my face with water to energize me, and sometimes the energy comes from students themselves. During my practicum, I have been impressed multiple times by my students. Between a cultural narrative project and a global citizen mission statement, I have been thriving off of student voice, and then sometimes you receive an unanticipated special note. Quotes from Student's Cultural Narratives on how their identity is shaped by language, ethnicity, religion, and gender:
Quotes from Global Citizen Mission Statement:
The reason why I chose Bonita Vista High school as the most significant place to me is that I have people I know that care so much for me. For example, my teacher, Ms. Clark, even though she knows I mess around a lot, she noticed me not being myself for a while. And she was the only person who noticed, cared, and supported me. She even wrote me a lovely note, which made my day better. She’s one of the people and reasons why school is very significant to me. During the SD immersion day, we started out by reflecting on ideas of service and privilege within the CASA center in the SLP. Additionally, we reviewed videos about students who cross the border daily to attend school and discussed how we might support our students facing this challenge. To begin our journey of empathy and perspective taking, we arrived at Friendship park and met with a border patrol agent and a gentleman who works with border angels. After our time at the border, we journeyed to Via International in Barrio Logan and met with community members regarding teaching unaccompanied minors and community activism through spoken word and delicious vegan food. We also walked around the community and passed out flyers for an event Via International is participating in; which also gave us the opportunity to see the homes our students could be living in. Lastly, we met with Spanish-only or bilingual moms of students in Linda Vista and hear their perspectives on what makes a quality teacher in terms of the supporting their students and parent engagement. Two weeks later, we met again in the SLP at the CASA center. During this time, we prepped our lessons to teach to the scouts. Once we crossed the border we met the Scouts, taught our mini lessons, and ate lunch made my community members. After the Scouts, we journeyed to friendship park. After time for reflection, we sat in the border line and ate yummy churros.
My role or objective for the day, was to immerse myself whole-heartedly. What I mean by that, is that my role was to be a human being and engage in conversations, actively listen, observe, smile, and laugh. I was there to be present with my own thoughts and actions and with those of others. Additionally, my role involved planning and implementing an equity activity centered on community. In the activity, students were in two teams and tasked with acquiring all the resources (10 balls) needs to sustain a community. However, since there was only 10 resources (balls) today, the teams needed to think through how both communities could be sustain which involved moving the hula hoops instead of the balls. During the activity, my role as teacher became a co-teacher with the amazing translator Alejandra, which was an enlightening and informative experience. During this trip my learning was confirmed and shifted in two specific instances. The first, my learning was confirmed in the sense that children in Tijuana are just like any other kids in any other county. Between my previous trips to T.J. during USD undergrad and this trip, I am continuously reminded that the humans on either side of the border are the same – they smile, laugh, cry, want a higher quality of life, need community, need education, etc. During our time at friendship park I smiled at the sight of multiple girls dressed beautifully for their quinceaneras. These girls were surrounded by their court of best girlfriends and their family beaming with pride. Three different quinceaneras and yet the scene was the same. I began to think about how many sweet 16 birthday parties were happening in the U.S. at that moment as well. Especially in San Diego on such a beautiful day. See these girls again confirmed my thoughts when I came to T.J. for the first time – we are really all the same – humans looking for love and support. This trip also shifted my beliefs in a way I hadn’t expected. I have only been to TJ a few times – always with USD and never on my own. I don’t have a great attachment to the city, although some of the people certainly have stolen a piece of my heart. Yet, in preparing for this trip I thought I was going in unbiased because I had been to the poorer parts of TJ. before and knew what to expect. But when we got the Scouts park, as I was ready to talk with the scouts and jump into the activities of the day, I was surprised by the judgement in my mind. This judgement was not about TJ or the scouts, but rather judgement of my peers – my familiarity with TJ although minimal compared to some, clouded my ability to realize that others around me may be experience the shock I experienced my first time seeing the poorer areas of TJ. My cohorts said “it is just dirt? I was picturing grass – they kept saying it was a park.” While my brain was saying “yup, this is it, now let’s have some fun!” My cohorts again “I have this whole lesson planned out I don’t know how it is going to work out.” While my brain was saying, “We are here in their community to share insight but ultimately allow them to reveal to us their understandings.” I caught myself multiple times judging my peers for the Americanized view they were bringing in to our experience – and forgot that my role was not to judge others but to invite people into the special places of Tijuana which I have found a sense of “home” in. In terms of multiculturalism, I was interested in a conversation with my peers about boy/girl scouts versus a non-gender binary scouts. This difference between America’s scouts and TJ’s scouts is significant and something to consider. I struggle with gender binary biases in America constantly and seeing the scouts in TJ made my truly wonder what differences in society would be present if our scouts and other organizations were not gender binary. Additionally, I thought about language in terms of the multiple languages the scouts and ourselves as teachers with a translation, and the connection of languages between what could be understood and what couldn’t. While speaking broken Spanish has always been my reality, speaking with a translator was a new experience for me and I questioned how bored the scouts might be having to listen to a language they might have minimal understanding in, just to have it repeated by someone speaking their own language. As an educator, I want to be active in my school’s community. Whether it was our delicious lunch being prepared for us by a community family in TJ or seeing the community organizations and leaders at Via International or listening to the mothers in Linda Vista – I truly gained a sense of the importance of creating connections not only with my students but with the community. Hearing the stories of children who are unaccompanied minors or seeing the power the scouts organization to allow joy and pride to be present on the faces of children encouraged me to think of community inside and outside the classroom. It is important to create a community within class so everyone feels welcome and some students may receive a sense of peace they do not gain at home; and expanding my community beyond the classroom will encourage immersion not only with our neighboring border country, but with the people I see every day picking up their children or at the grocery store and yet have never immersed with. It is ironic that community was also the topic of my scouts lessons, but I truly feel creating community is what I will carrying into my future work. I was asked for an assignment to create a culturally responsive "Stakeholder Interview." This interview was to be about gaining background on a student and could be directed at admin, counselors, parents, peers; I choose parents:
Creating these questions was not an easy task. It is interesting, when asked to develop a conversation – something we do on a daily basis – stress and difficulty arises. This might be because our daily conversations are not based on meaningful relationships – which relates directly to Sean’s discussion on restorative practices. Ultimately in creating these questions, I thought to myself, if I was a parent what questions would I want to be asked. This thinking may lead to a bias of my wishes and not the wishes of others – but I am who I am. I can only develop questions that are within my own understanding and I made note to add a question in which the parent may feel empowered to bring up their own topics of conversation. When developing this interview – I starting thinking “I should have about 10 questions to cover all the topics Dr. Jez said we “may include.” Then looking at my fingers hoovering over the keyboard unaware how to start, I realized it is not about covering everything or having a set number to constrain me. Instead, being culturally responsive is being open to the person in front of you and giving them the opportunity to share what they think is important. The most important aspect of being culturally responsive in developing these questions is giving voice to those who need to be heard. One of the major focuses of my seminar class has been creating an atmosphere of care within the classroom. Throughout the past few weeks, this has been seen through my professors' opening circles, constant encouragement, shared success/failure stories, and appraisal of hard work and effort at the end of a long day. All of these I would consider as examples of both relationship building and resiliency.
Similar to “relationship building” is “relationship skills” which is one of the 5 core Social Emotional Learning (SEL) competences promoted by CASEL. In my SEL elective class, we looked at articles in which relationship skills was exemplified by two specific examples: respectful talk and student buckets. Respectful talk was modeled both by Sherwanda Chism’s use of accountable talk steams and the Edutopia video of School 21 in England which focuses on Oracy in the Classroom. The similar aspect of these two examples was the desire for student voice and discussion and talking steams (I agree, I disagree, While __ was convincing with his/her/their point of _____, I would like to address ____). These steams are important because they build relationships by creating respect between the parties involved. Additionally, student buckets is an idea that promotes affirmations. While this idea of what fills your bucket may appeal to the elementary age kids, with secondary education I believe it is also important; not only for talking steams and seminars to allow students to learn and respect each other, but to additionally affirm each other which could be done verbally or through affirmation submission which could be posted in the room. For example, today during class one of my students had a very insightful thought and I pointed out verbally and by name the students and the excellent point they made. Ultimately, what Bambara argues and design thinking and restorative circles all relate to is, the idea that teachers need to provide students guidance in relationship building skills and opportunities to practice in class. Students may not have been taught how to communicate their feelings, students may not have been taught how to disagree with someone politely, students may not have been taught to affirm someone – it is my role as teachers to TEACH them and give them opportunity to OWN it for themselves. Attending the homecoming festivities, was a special treat for a high school student teacher. I was amazing at the football game by the food booths designed by the clubs and enjoyed spending some quality time with fellow teachers and student teachers. The most amazing thing about the homecoming game compared to other games, however, is the halftime show. Seeing students preform with their varying organizations and watching the students in the stands as they support there senior peers walk down the red carpet was inspirational. Homecoming is about alumni coming home, and this was on my mind as I considered the fact that while I was at Bonita, I was missing my own alma mater's game at home. Yet, I smiled with joy thinking to myself - now I have two alma maters because Bonita will always be the school of my first teaching experience.
The game wasn't the only inspirational event of the weekend however. Every day I see students enter my class in jeans and t-shirts, but Saturday, all dressed up - looking fancy at Sea World for the Homecoming dance was a moment when I saw my students sparkle. And not just my students, but all grades. Working the check-in table, I was able to greet a variety of students and see the special bond between students and teachers as they were excited to see specific teachers working the event. Reflecting on Homecoming - I think about how much of high school is really "home." I always refrained from using that word because of the connotation for some students whose home lives may be triggering to bring the idea of "home" to school. Alternatively, school is where students spend a majority of their day, and I believe if high schools really accepted this concept of homecoming and encouraged it throughout the year - bringing in alumni to speak, creating a home within classes, and a system of support between the grades, then homecoming may become more than a dazzling halftime show and sparkling dance; it would be a true symbol of coming home. |
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